A few weeks while I was at home doing a mundane task, it dawned on me that I haven’t complained about much of anything. I have had the worries, the fears, and confusion and for sure the WTF but never any complaints. I’m not expressing this as a “my life is great” bs, but I do feel very fortunate. Last year, sacrifices were made and truths were faced that had been ignored and it wasn’t pretty... I needed that.
May was good to me even when certain days weren’t.
Over the last few years May has become quite the eventful month. Along with my Mother’s 2 week celebration of getting older and being a mom (man, every time I say goodbye to her, I miss her already), now it’s also home to me and Z’s wedding anniversary. We celebrated 3 years of marriage with a really nice and delicious dinner at Craft. It is kind of crazy how fast time has passed since we said our vows. We’re officially in the middle of our 5-year plan. I’m not scared of getting older -- it’s missing the little moments that scares me.
I also flowered it up this month -- solo and for some designer friends. Learning lessons each time.
If there is one thing that I feel extremely lucky to have in my life, it’s my husband. Like any couple, we have had the “what if’s” discussions, the sweet little moments where we avow our relationship, all that other superfluous things that couples say. When real life hit that’s when all that talk became fact. In my corner was a calm, resourceful, and diligent man who always thinks ahead (something I have always stupidly felt slowed me down). As a fruitful routine started making its way back into my life, I realized the sacrifices he made and the burdens he took on without hesitation, without complaint. He was a constant source of structure, affirmation, and a reminder to keep my ish together. I told him that I felt lucky to be in the situation I was in and he dismissed it. He reminded me that I worked hard and kept my persistence and those are the reasons why I’m in the position that I’m in. It stuff like this I don’t ever want to miss.
Now back to June.
|Brights by Sølve Sundsbø featuring Freja Beha Erichsen for Harper's Bazaar US March 2008 via Noir Façade|